Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny



❰PDF / Epub❯ ☆ Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny Author Holly Madison – E17streets4all.co.uk The shocking, never before told story of the bizarre world inside the legendary Playboy Mansion and, finally, the secret truth about the man who holds the key from one of the few people who truly know The shocking, never before told story of Rabbit Hole: PDF/EPUB ä the bizarre world inside the legendary Playboy Mansion and, finally, the secret truth about the man who holds the key from one of the few people who truly knows Hef s formergirlfriend and star of The Girls Next DoorA spontaneous decision at age twenty one transformed small town Oregon girl Holly Sue Cullen into Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner sgirlfriend But like Alice s journey into Wonderland, after Holly plunged down the rabbit hole, what seemed like a fairytale life inside the Playboy Mansion including A list celebrity parties Down the PDF \ and her ownrated television show for four years quickly devolved into an oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies Life inside the notorious Mansion wasn t a dream at all and quickly became her nightmare After losing her identity, her sense of self worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicideBut instead of ending her life, Holly chose to take charge of itIn this shockingly candid and surprisingly moving memoir, this thoughtful and introspective woman opens up about life inside the Mansion, the Rabbit Hole: PDF È the drugs, the sex, the abuse, the infamous parties, and her real behind the scenes life with Bridget, Kendra, and, of course, Mr Playboy himselfWith great courage, Holly shares the details of her subsequent troubled relationship, landing her own successful television series, and the hard work of healing, including her turn on Dancing with the Stars A cautionary tale and a celebration of personal empowerment, Down the Rabbit Hole reminds us of the importance of fighting for our dreams and finding the life we deserve.Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny

Holly Madison spent five seasons on the Rabbit Hole: PDF/EPUB ä rated E hit reality show The Girls Next Door before landing the leading role in the Las Vegas Strip s smash hit, Peepshow She also starred in two seasons of her own hit E series Holly s World Madison divides her time between Las Vegas and Los Angeles with her husband and daughter.

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  • Audiobook
  • 11 pages
  • Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny
  • Holly Madison
  • English
  • 17 June 2018
  • 0062395130

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  1. says:

    Or, as I called the book in my head, Everyone is a Whore Except Me and Here s Why Better yet The Truth About Kettle An Autobiography by Pot Look, I m not going to pretend that I had any good reason to read this book Underneath the surface, this is a scathing indictment of unfair beauty standards, the fear of female sexuality, and the entire goddamn patriarchy and Madison, delightfully, seems blissfully unaware of the deeper implications of some of her observations about the unfairness of l Or, as I called the book in my head, Everyone is a Whore Except Me and Here s Why Better yet The Truth About Kettle An Autobiography by Pot Look, I m not going to pretend that I had any good reason to read this book Underneath the surface, this is a scathing indictment of unfair beauty standards, the fear of female sexuality, and the entire goddamn patriarchy and Madison, delightfully, seems blissfully unaware of the deeper implications of some of her observations about the unfairness of life at the Playboy Mansion she s just mad that all these girls were so mean to her But that s not why I read it I read it because behind the scenes look at trashy reality show is one of my favorite memoir styles, and I ve always been weirdly fascinated by mistresses, harems, harem culture, and the whole what men think women do when they re not around vs what women actually do issue But mostly I just wanted dirt on Hugh Hefner, the weird atmosphere of the Playboy Mansion, and the women who were paid to have sex with Hefner under the guise of girlfriends I wanted dirt, and hoooooly shit, readers, does Holly Madison deliver the dirt It s hilarious that the cover photo shows Madison holding a finger to her lips, because she is holding nothing back here Ahonest picture would be Madison shouting at the reader Reading this book is sort of like sitting down for coffee with a casual acquaintance right after she s broken up with her boyfriend, and you have to sit there and listen politely while she unloads every complaint and annoyance she ever had while they were dating In short, Holly Madison has some things to get off her chest, and god damn was I here for that I read this book in two and a half days So, some background Holly Madison spent seven years living in the Playboy Mansion as one of Hugh Hefner s girlfriends In the early years, she was one of a larger group of girls who are always referred to by Holly s hilariously oblivious narration as the mean girls , but later the girlfriends shrank to three members Madison, Bridgette Marquette, and Kendra Wilkinson The women gained fame when they starred in a reality show based around the Playboy Mansion, and then eventually moved on to get their own shows once they left the mansion Sidebar there are a ton of The Girls Next Door episodes on YouTube right now, and there are worse ways to waste an afternoon Madison s memoir is an incredible portrait of a total lack of self awareness She spends most of this book desperately trying to convince the reader that she is somehow different than all the other women who dated Hugh Hefner and posed in his magazine See, those other girls were dumb bimbos, but not Holly She only pretended to be dumb The other girls were cookie cutter blondes who all looked like clones of each other, but not Holly Sure, she bleached her hair and got plastic surgery, but only because she wanted to fit in It s totally different And the other girls were opportunistic sluts who only used Hef to gain fame Not Holly Sure, she left the mansion and got her own reality show, and went on Dancing With the Stars, and starred in a Vegas show, but she accomplished all of that on her own The fact that each of these projects made direct references to her history with Playboy is just a coincidence It is stunningly absurd that, for all the time Madison spends insisting that she s built a career on her own and has completely escaped the shadow of Playboy, she can never convince the reader that she s become famous in her own right I mean, for God s sake, the subtitle of this book makes sure to mention that Madison is a former Playboy bunny because like it or not, that is Madison s sole claim to fame Of course, to hear Madison tell it, she was just playing the game, and was trying to get out all along She never loved Hef, and had to pretend otherwise because it suited his cultivated image She merely played along, Madison insists, until she was able to escape The idea that other women may have had the exact same strategy has not occurred to Madsion, and she remains blissfully unaware of her own hypocrisy One of the many, many bits of vengeful gossip Madison gives us is that Kendra s signature loud laugh is completely faked, and that Kendra only started doing it to distinguish herself from the other women This, readers, is the dictionary definition of pretty fucking rich because have you ever heard Holly Madison s laugh She just bleats ha ha ha ha in a monotone, like someone who mispronounces a word because they ve only ever seen it written down.And for all her railing against the mean girls of the mansion, Holly Madison is like the most petty and passive agressive person I ve ever read about After detailing her breakup with Vegas magician Criss Angel Vegas Magician Criss Angel Madison gleefully quotes, at length, all of the negative reviews his show received I m pretty sure that Peep Show, Madison s own Vegas show, wasn t exactly showered in positive reviews, but as far as she s concerned, it was a massive hit and everyone loved her and her lifelike, nuanced acting And Madison makes sure we know that after she left The Girls Next Door, the show was a failure without her and was quickly canceled When Madison s own reality show is canceled after two seasons, she explains that this was right after a new president came on at E , who wanted to move away from Playboy related content The implication is that, if it wasn t for this change in management, Holly s show would still be running today When she is accused of starting a twitter fight with Hefner s new girlfriend by claiming she stole her look a look which, remember, Madison adopted in order to fit in with all the other bleached, surgically enhanced blondes at the Mansion , Madison is adamant that she did no such thing, and only posted a generic tweet about hating copycats I see you, Madison You ain t slick And of course Holly Madison feels a personal affinity with Marilyn Monroe, unwilling patron saint of vapid starlets who want to appear complex Here s one of the book srage inducing paragraphs Like me, Marilyn had suffered at the hands of some not very nice men She was used, underappreciated, and struggled to find herself She worked her way up in Hollywood with stars in her eyes and a kind heart, but found that Hollywood wasn t always as kind in return She may have been publicly adored, idolized, and lusted after, but she often felt alone and trapped Those dark demons eventually got the best of Marilyn Part of me knows that could have easily been my fate had I not chosen to take care of myself I only wish poor Marilyn could have done the same Wow Wooooooow I love this paragraph, because it reveals so muchabout Madison s character than she realizes She puts herself in the same category as Marilyn Monroe, one of the most famous and most talented women of her generation, and did everyone catch the way she subtlely blames Monroe for her own suicide Gee, if only Monroe had chosen to take care of herself, she might still be alive If only Holly Madison had been around to show her the way Underneath the drama and the fluff and the gossip, Madison is perhaps unintentionally exposing something much darker and far reaching than a bunch of backstabbing mean girls The real fascination of this memoir is watching Madison explore how she was brainwashed and virtually imprisoned, and how she went about the process of slowly undoing the damage she incurred at the Playboy mansion a process that is still ongoing Simply put, Holly Madison is a survivor of domestic abuse, although she doesn t yet have the emotional vocabulary to articulate this You only have to read a few paragraphs about Hugh Hefner s intense control issues he apparently hates red lipstick on women, and once screamed at Madison when she dared to wear it and the way he pits the women against each other to realize that you re reading a description of a textbook abuser When Madison is describing the steps she took to leave the mansion saving money, making an escape plan , she sounds exactly like everyone who ever had to go through the process of escaping an abusive partner It s going to be easy for reviewers to demonize Holly Madison for her choices and as you can see from the many, many paragraphs above, it s hard not to because, as I said in my review of Pamela Des Barres s memoir of her time as a groupie, Madison is merely a symptom of a bigger disease The real villain of this story is not backstabbing opportunistic women, but the man who orchestrated their struggles, and encouraged fighting among them so they would forget who the real enemy was But Madison didn t forget, and she s at her best when her writing is full of righteous fury and frustration at Hugh Hefner, the man who kept her a virtual prisoner and destroyed her self esteem so thoroughly that she contemplated suicide Sure, Holly Madison is awful human being, but Hefner is the Dr Frankenstein, while Madison is merely the monster that all the villagers go after with pitchforks.In conclusion fuck you, Hugh Hefner You re a bad person, I m glad your entire empire is crumbling, and I hope whatever barely legal girl you marry next smothers you in your sleep

  2. says:

    When is a prostitute not a prostitute If a woman who is homeless, couchsurfing, and has debts and no real income approaches a man to request that she come and live in his place as one of his many women and knows she will have to have sex with him and will get a 1,000 a week, what would you call her Holly, Izabella, Kendra and the other four girls all called themselves girlfriends Well I suppose escort, whore or scrubber didn t appeal to them or Hugh Hefner Hef likes to be known as the u When is a prostitute not a prostitute If a woman who is homeless, couchsurfing, and has debts and no real income approaches a man to request that she come and live in his place as one of his many women and knows she will have to have sex with him and will get a 1,000 a week, what would you call her Holly, Izabella, Kendra and the other four girls all called themselves girlfriends Well I suppose escort, whore or scrubber didn t appeal to them or Hugh Hefner Hef likes to be known as the ultimate ladies man so of course he couldn t be seen to pay for sex So his private brothel was known collectively as the girlfriends and he didn t pay them, he gave them a clothing allowance and paid for all and any beauty enhancements, nails to plastic surgery In the Playboy house there was a recruiter for a high class whore agency Holly herself says she never went that route, but lots of the girls did Some who got found out by Hef were thrown out of the house Others I suppose just realised it was less work formoney flying out to some Arab in Turkey for the night and left Then there was the Heidi Fleiss connection All these girls, Holly included, had all had jobs in the entertainment industry or were prepared to strip naked to pose for men s wanking material in Playboy It doesn t matter how you dress it up, this is selling sex for money I don t think that s wrong or immoral, I just don t like hearing of an elegant silver implement for tilling the fair earth when what is meant is a shovel for digging up potatoes In her book, Bunny Tales Behind Closed Doors at the Playboy Mansion, Izabella details exactly what the duties of these whores were she says Holly was chief nipple sucker in bed She didn t like Holly, characterised as cold, manipulative and very focused on Hef being her stepping stone to fame Holly, despite some clever ghost writing, did nothing to change that view of herself Holly characterises Izabella and the other girls as Mean Girls Holly says, suppose you are the company you keep and let s just say the other six girls weren t winning any spelling bees Izabella St James who is equally self deluded had a law degree.Holly worked hard to become the chief girlfriend and bedroom sharer of Hef So did she become a girlfriend She says she was shy, a shrinking violet , who deluded herself into believing she was in love with Hef Really A man who was as old as her grandfather, had sex with six other women at the same time and treated her so much like an object he ripped her apart for wearing red lipstick and cutting her hair All the girls were rapaciously greedy clones, all long haired blondes with boob and nose jobs wearing trashy outfits I don t really know why he neededthan one and some mirrors She elbowed everyone out of the way and classes all Hef s previous main girlfriends as, two faced manipulators Takes one to know one sweetheart I don t know if Holly fits the DSM IV definition of a narcissist, but she is the only person who matters in her world Everyone else, with the exception of Bridget Maquardt who never achieved the smallest measure of success after leaving the house, she slags off She rips apart Hef who actually gave her training and a job directing photo shoots for Playboy She hates all the other girls and can t understand why they don t like her She especially hates Kendra In fact, Holly only likes people who do things for her After 7 years in the house she is bored, has substantial savings and is looking to strike out on her own.She meets Criss Angel and he offers her love, marriage and the opportunity to leave the house for his own, so she does The relationship by her account is 99% abuse by Criss and only 1% fun He gets her on her red carpets, introduces her to people, but all of this is not because he is proud of his new girlfriend and showing her off, nope it is only for the publicity she can bring to him Really Hef s ex whore whom no one has any respect for Actually this is a point she belabours at length That she isthan Hef s ex,than a nude Playboy model,than the vacuous blonde she played on Girls Next Door which I never saw Or I did but only like flicking through channels when I was in the US once She really wants to forge her own identity and she, as much now as before she asked Hefner if she could move into the house, wants fame and money She wants her own tv show This is her focus, fame.So she says that Criss Angel who not being able to take her any offers her a ticket home to her parents and stores her goods for her until she can decide what she wants to do Eventually she gets a Vegas show of her own, on the strength of being Hef s ex she does not see this , one where a lot of the reviews say things like, If you EVER want to see the poster girl for dumb vacuous blonde with zero stage presence but, granted, nice boobs , google Holly Madison My god.she can t act her way out of a paper bag. WHAT was Hugh thinking ohhe s a guynevermind On her opening night, wanting to crow it over Criss she sends him a text and gets this as a reply from his girlfriend, I told myself I wouldn t do this but I am answering your text anyway Criss is with me now Stop texting him You are disgusting You are in a burlesque show because you can t do anything else You used an old man to get to the B list Criss told me the real reason you guys broke up It s not because of scheduling differences but because you were on anti depressants and he couldn t be with someone like that If I had your reputation I would be on anti depressants too You are the biggest running joke around here You got used Lose this number Sometimes the truth hurts I think anti depressants might be a euphemism for other drugs Th ey were freely available in the Mansion, Hefner kept some in his pockets even.Anyway to make things a bitbrief, Holly compares herself to Marilyn Monroe She gets cameo roles in Hefner s show, hates his new no 1 girlfriend Crystal, the one he married but it s her fault of course Gets her own show but doesn t want to be associated with Playboy in any way as she now thinks she is famous in her own right She cannot stand not being the no 1 focus and in the spotlight and when she makes too much of herself in a cameo on Kendra s show it is of course the production crew s fault Kendra who isn t quite such a bitch says in an interview, We ve all found our own little roads to go and that s just the way it goes This infuriates Holly who thinks that means Kendra thinks she is better than anyone else and will do anything for publicity, lol She s such a bundle of cliches is Holly Pot calling the kettle etcSo she tweets Kendra, I decided to text her how I truly felt that she was a coward and that she tried to act like the real girl on TV, but she s the fakest person I ve ever met Kendra responded this made me laugh Girl, I don t have a problem with you I just don t like it when people think we are friends Holly tells her how rude she is and Kendra responds, Who are you i don t even know you We were never friends It was all just work Well that explains the extreme nastiness directed at Kendra in the book.Anyway, it all ends happily ever after when Holly meets a smart, funny, really rich man and within months she is pregnant, gives up her show and moves in with him Funny how these things go, isn t it Not one ever to lose an opportunity for tv time and fame, she does a deal with E network to shoot the birth and says, Being surrounded by the crew, even in the delivery room, made me feel extra safe and supported during this new experience They made me feel like they had my back A year later they have Disneyland in California closed so they can get married in a fairytale extravaganza despite the fact she is now about 34 and I hope that she and Pasquale and little Rainbow Aurora all live happily ever after.But if they don t, I m sure there will be a tv special, a National Enquirer exc lusive and a book telling us how terrible it was The book is quite well written by her collaborator is that what they call ghost writers these days Leslie Bruce It is a pretty much enjoyable story of a successful gold digger and whore who protests she wants to be famous in her own right and never hear Playboy again but without it, she would just have been the tall, not terribly pretty girl from Alaska called Holly Cullen with a great body and a desire to make money from it, and we d never have heard of her.5 stars to Leslie Bruce1 star to Holly Madison2 stars for the book.Sorry this review is so long, I enjoyed writing it but editing not so much Well truthfully, not at all.You know what I d really like I d like to have a completely off the record, no phones coffee with Leslie Bruce and hear what she really thinks of Holly Notes I made every now and againHef has died I see that all the whores girlfriends are coming out the woodwork and saying just how much they loved Hefner Really They all reviled him in the tell all books of life in the mansion with the old guy you had to screw on a timetable I just had to update this with what Kendra said about Holly in today s Twitter fuss view spoiler May 19th, 2016 hide spoiler Kendra who is forthright that living in the house with Hefner was work, unlike the revisionist Holly, said today of Holly, She wasn t in fear with that dick in her ass for a paycheck, That bitch is in fear now knowing so many of us saw her doing some nasty shit She s embarrassed and in shame She was the clean up girl Holly s job was to get Hef hard again and clean him up with her mouth If she doesn t get sued, it s true Holly had to clean up Hefner in front of five girls so yeah, I could see that she s embarrassed about that extremely sex worker like, un girlfriend like behaviour Funny shit though

  3. says:

    What can I say I was curious What can I say I was curious

  4. says:

    Here s the tl dr version Feel bad for me, but don t because I m better than everyone else I m using Hef because I m about to be homeless and god forbid I move back home like a normal person Also I want to be an actress, but I m too lazy to pursue it the traditional way likeactually trying so I guess I ll sit here and be miserable while getting everything handed to me and then complaining that it s not enough I m totally not just here to use Hef and get whatever I can out of the situation Here s the tl dr version Feel bad for me, but don t because I m better than everyone else I m using Hef because I m about to be homeless and god forbid I move back home like a normal person Also I want to be an actress, but I m too lazy to pursue it the traditional way likeactually trying so I guess I ll sit here and be miserable while getting everything handed to me and then complaining that it s not enough I m totally not just here to use Hef and get whatever I can out of the situation I m not like those OTHER GIRLS Willingly stayed in a situation that was making me miserable because I was finally getting what I wanted Reality TV YAY Nothing is my fault Ever More whining More holier than thou speeches about the other girls The sense of entitlement is unreal I simply cannot sympathize with this girl For all her bragging about how intelligent she is, I find myself lacking the ability to write a coherent review after reading this hot mess

  5. says:

    No shame This shit is juicy.

  6. says:

    My mind is whirling with so many thoughts right now that I can t even keep track of what I m thinking as I m thinking it because another thought forms This book did that to me So, I don t normally read biographies or nonfiction I have, in the past, just not often However, as soon as I heard about this book I had to read it I won t lie, I was a viewer of the tv show, The Girls Next Door I loved watching their bubbly personalities I can t count how many times I giggled as something played My mind is whirling with so many thoughts right now that I can t even keep track of what I m thinking as I m thinking it because another thought forms This book did that to me So, I don t normally read biographies or nonfiction I have, in the past, just not often However, as soon as I heard about this book I had to read it I won t lie, I was a viewer of the tv show, The Girls Next Door I loved watching their bubbly personalities I can t count how many times I giggled as something played out onscreen Again I will be honest when I say that I thought Holly was the girlfriend that truly cared even a smidgen about Hef So reading this was extremely eye opening I couldn t put it down once I started and as soon as I finished I logged online to see what other readers were feeling after reading and I was shocked Readers or probably just commenters on stories across the internet are shaming Holly for the decisions she made in the past They are shaming her for feeling the way she felt in the past and the way she feels now And it s not right We don t know what truly happened in that mansion Everyone will have their own perspective on events and that s okay Everyone will feel in their own way and again that s okay Something my husband always tells me is, Don t be sorry for how you feel It s how YOU FEEL, it can t be wrong and you can t change your reaction, your feelings, to a situation And he is absolutely right, everyone reacts in their own way to words, events, and certain situations We can t change our feelings, we can only close them off and PRETEND to feel differently Feelings bubble up subconsciously, we don t force them unless we are acting.This book was mostly about how Holly FELT during her time in the mansion and how she FEELS now while looking back at the past She isn t wrong for how she feels I m not defending her or Hef or any of the other girlfriends mentioned in the book, but I will say this If Holly truly felt what she wrote in the book Holly, I am happy for you now I wish you the best.I don t wish any form of abuse on anyone, whether sexual, verbal, emotional or physical Yes, Holly went into the relationship knowing that she was going to be taken care of , but that still gives NO MAN or WOMAN the right to degrade or control you A relationship is a mutual dance It s give and take It s being there for someone when they need help and having someone be there for you when you need help It s knowing that you are loved and safe to be yourself and vice versa What was written in this novel was not a relationship As for those that are criticizing her because she pursued him and she knew what she was in for Does anyone ever really see abuse coming NO, because abusers are smart They are charming, they hide it and they reel you in For those criticizing her for biting the hand that feeds her after she made the decision to date a man old enough to be her grandfather in exchange for money Have you even read the book And have you ever made a decision that you regretted later on Or are you a saint As I stated above, we can t be sure what happened because we weren t there But what we can take from this book is we shouldn t ever allow anyone to strip us of our self worth no matter who that person is or how much we feel we owe someone We should never settle for less than we deserve We should always strive to reach our goals no matter who stands in our way and we should never give up.If you read this novel and didn t get that from it, you went in biased and I hope you take a second look at it with an open mind and an open heart

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    2 Bitter High school drama stars What kind of catty ass, poorly written, woe is me crap did I just read Wow where to even began I liked the show the girls next door Holly was always my favorite as I really thought she loved Hef Now let me be honest here and say I have never been a fan of Hugh Hefner I have always thought he was a dirty, creepy, nasty, selfish old man He spent his whole life using young pretty women He made a shit ton of money sexually objectifying women He fucked e 2 Bitter High school drama stars What kind of catty ass, poorly written, woe is me crap did I just read Wow where to even began I liked the show the girls next door Holly was always my favorite as I really thought she loved Hef Now let me be honest here and say I have never been a fan of Hugh Hefner I have always thought he was a dirty, creepy, nasty, selfish old man He spent his whole life using young pretty women He made a shit ton of money sexually objectifying women He fucked em and used them like interchangeable sex toys, that he could replace in seconds He was a huge hypocrite that openly fucked multiple barely legal women while demanding faithfulness for those same women Now don t get me wrong, I don t have a problem with women posing nude, or making porn or anything they want to do with their bodies As long as it s their choice and they are respected I also don t have any problem with open relationships or polyamory Personally they are not for me as I m not a sharer, but if that s what you want and it s not hurting anyone, you do you boo That being said, I always felt Hugh was a self serving prick that had no respect for women, while pretending to be about women s sexual liberation If any average Joe kept multiple girlfriends, slept with 18 year olds while well into his 60s,70s, 80s etc, slept with twin sisters at the same time, did drugs and past them out like candy, was super controlling, took a shit ton of nudes photos and sold them and had men coming to parties to,watch and or hook up with hot young, high and drunk women he would be labeled a pervert, creep, pimp, and a sexual predator So yeah I have never cared for Hugh Hefner However I do understand that it was consensual and that the girls were in it to get the fame, status, money, and all that came for being with Hugh So understanding my feeling on the whole playboy mansion crap, one day I was channel surfing and seen an show called the Girls next door I was curious and nothing else was on so I watched the episode and totally got hooked Why you ask , would you watch a show with a man you clearly don t like and the the answer is I loved Holly I really thought she was different I thought she loved Hef unlike the other women I hoped Hef would see she truly cared for him That he would change his ways, he was old enough to settle down, and make her happy I wanted her to get her HEA Even if it was with a dirty old man When they broke up I wasn t all that heartbroken, but I was again, curious So when I heard Holly wrote a tell all I wanted to read it The other day I found her book on sale for 1.00 and was so excited to dive in and see what it was like with Holly and Hef To get all the dirty deets on how their relationship really worked and why they broke up What I got was a whinny, catty book filled with a shit ton of girl drama and very little about Holly and Hef It got really tedious and I was so disappointed It truly was almost 400 pages of Holly going on and on about how all the other girls in the house were evil, hateful, druggie whores They were just so mean to her Poor Holly Everyone hated her for no reason at all She was of course perfect, friendly, and loving All that was good and right, and they were just mean whores that were using Hef Treating her like shit and making her life a living hell They were using him for what they could get and didn t care at all about him personally Holly on the other hand found Hef gross, controlling, verbally abusive, and manipulative She didn t like sleeping with him and didn t like the person he was, thought he looked like an old embarrassing fool, but she wasn t a whore or a user like the other women Nope she had a kind of Stockholm syndrome and truly believed she loved Hugh She tried to like him She never did drugs, and she didn t sleep with other men The other women just wanted fame and money from Hef, but not Holly This is all said while she tells us readers how she s going to the Mansion in hopes of being in playboy to start her career Then she tells how she got to tag along on a outing to a dance club as a guess with Hef and his then girlfriends She goes because she is homeless and is hoping to get asked to stay at the mansion She then tells how after clubbing, she goes home with Hef and the girlfriends, ends up sleeping with him while so drunk that it s all hazy The next morning she tells him she is homeless and asks to move in She pushes herself into his life Needed him for money, a career starter and a place to live, even though he was a gross outta touch old guy , but hey she was not like the other whore users She was a good girlfriend that tried to have things in common with him, and tried to keep him from looking like a old fool And she slept with only him a man that was old enough to be her great grandpa her words which he didn t appreciate enough She was so not a user, in it for what she could get Nope she was a victim It was so obvious to the readers that Holly, in fact didn t like Hef She wasn t attracted at all to him Wanted what she could get from him And felt bitter, like he didn t give her enough or do enough for her It was also obvious that she was disgusted with herself and the other girls for sleeping with a dirty old man for what they could get She felt shame so she tried to make it sound like she was in it forpure reasons She didn t like him but at least she tried Then she acted like she got a kind of Stockholm syndrome Please stop While there was a bit about Hef in the book and their relationship 90% of the book was boring retellings of the fights she had with the other girls Then after making sure to paint herself as a good person, unlike the other girls, she makes herself a victim again Stating that Criss Angel tricked her into another abusive relationship The book it s self is poorly written, jumps around, and was super boring Having read it I now have no respect for Holly I really did like her before I would have still liked her had she been honest Had she not went out of her way to paint herself a pure hearted sweet victim and all the other women as whores If she would have been like Yea I slept with Hef to get fame, but he used me too I could have been fine with that, but she wasn t nothing like I thought from the show and that is just sad I just wished I would have never read this book I wanted a juicy tell all filled with real love, some drama, what went wrong between Holly and Hef and instead got catty bullshit Total let down

  8. says:

    A lot of whining going on, but this was JUICY AS HELL.

  9. says:

    Well, well, well, who knew I know you might see this book as a silly book, but I liked it, because I felt that Holly was really honest when she wrote it Everything about Hef is already disgusting but knowing that he is not even nice, he is not even the nice grandpa he seemed on the The Girls Next Door I am glad she spilled the tea about everything

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    I read this book because watching The Girls Next Door was a guilty pleasure of mine It was light, funny, and unusual I, like I assume most readers of this book, was curious.First of all, this book is poorly written The amount of parentheses and exclamation marks is excessive Sometimes thoughts are in italics, other times in quotations The phrases to be honest, or honestly are overused The entire book is supposed to be an honest opinion or story, so I don t understand why these phrases I read this book because watching The Girls Next Door was a guilty pleasure of mine It was light, funny, and unusual I, like I assume most readers of this book, was curious.First of all, this book is poorly written The amount of parentheses and exclamation marks is excessive Sometimes thoughts are in italics, other times in quotations The phrases to be honest, or honestly are overused The entire book is supposed to be an honest opinion or story, so I don t understand why these phrases require such frequent use I could go on and on about this aspect.Also, Ms Madison doesn t take much of the blame for the dissolution of any of the friendships or relationships she discusses She often feels sorry for the people around her, then delves into a description of her low self esteem She has somehow combined superiority with a victim mentality Nothing is ever her fault, she tries her hardest, and that makes her better than you I have nothing to say about the revelations she made about the mansion, Playboy, or Mr Hefner, besides the fact that if she said it once in this book, she said it a hundred times Everyone makes mistakes in their youth At first, we may not seem them as big mistakes Then they re the worst thing that s ever happened to us Finally we figure out that the truth is somewhere in between It seems like Ms Madison is still in that second phase I hope that writing this book was cathartic But if she writes another one, I will not be reading it

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